Let’s Get Real

My Saturday Struggle is starting really, really early this weekend and I’m not especially thrilled about it. I’m going to about get real with you guys; real gross.

Lately, I’ve been sweating in my sleep. It’s terrible. At first, my psychiatrist and I thought it was because I was weaning off my Klonopin and my body was basically withdrawing from them. Then we thought it may be the Zoloft; some people sweat as a symptom. However, it’s been happening again since my surgery. 😦

Last night I woke up at 1 am just dripping. I was wet, my nape hair was wet, the sheets were wet; everything was just wet. Part of the problem last night was that I had a nightmare that I couldn’t seem to wake myself up from. Once I was awake and realized how wet, sticky, and uncomfortable I was I couldn’t go back to sleep obviously so I got up and took a shower. However, that woke me up. It took me over an hour after my shower to fall back asleep.

To top it all off, I told Tyson I would get up with Tate in the morning. And of course, he woke up at 4:30 in the morning! 4:30 people! Wide eyed and ready to eat and play.

Needless to say, I am exhausted. Thankfully Cash is still asleep and Tate has been relatively easy this morning. And to be completely honest, I’m just counting down the minutes until I feel it’s appropriate to go wake Tyson up and ask him to switch spots so I can catch a few zzz’s before we start the day.

I know this is just a part of parenting, but this was never a part of parenting Cash. He has always been a great sleeper. Slept through the night fairly early and likes to “sleep in,” at least compared to his brother. I am looking forward to the times when Tyson and I don’t have to get up before 5:30 AM with the kids (TATE) on the weekends.

I hope everyone else is having a great weekend and a fun Saturday!!!

The Time Has Come

I’m super excited to announce that I am getting my boobs done! Tyson and I went to my pre-op appointment yesterday to discuss sizing, procedure, post-op, and go over any other questions we had.

This is something I have wanted since before I had Cash and felt even more strongly about after I had Tate (and nursed him for a year). Pregnancy and nursing really wrecks your ‘girls.’

I have mentioned my dislike for they way I look up there a handful of times (like here) but never talked about surgery. So now that it’s all finalized I figured I would put it out there in the open. 🙂

I am really excited and will write about my post-op recovery when the time comes.

Unfortunately, my excitement has been dampened a bit by this horrendous cold I have today. Thankfully, Tyson took the boys to soccer practice and the gym this morning. They were gone for about 7 hours and I slept the majority of that time. 😦 I woke up still feeling lousy. Hopefully, it goes away in the next day or two because I have an insanely busy week with midterms, a new class starting, and a research paper.

The struggle is real today!

studying

 

Bad Mom Moments

Let’s be honest, adulting is hard. But parenting is harder.

We all have bad mom moments and here are a few of mine.

  • My kids have this bad habit of waking up early, I mean 5 AM early. Sometimes I will hang out with the boys until 7 ish and then put Tate down for a nap. Once I do this I will make sure Cash has everything he needs and take a little cat nap on the couch. Those 30 minutes of sleep are so glorious!
  • I take the boys to our gym and drop them off at the daycare just so I can have some quite time. This happens whether I have homework, blog work, or absolutely nothing to do.
  • Like any parent, I hide when I eat candy because I don’t want to share. Don’t lie, I know you do it. Honestly, I think my husband is the only adult who does not do it. He will openly eat candy in front of our kids and just simply tell them no and let them complain. It drives me nuts!
  • Also like any normal parent out there, I have told Cash we don’t have batteries or the batteries are dead just so I don’t have to hear a certain toy anymore.
  • The other day I got a sitter so I could go to a doctor appointment. I didn’t know for sure how long the appointment was going to last so I got the sitter for 3 hours, just to be safe. Well, I had an extra hour after driving home. I legit sat in the parking lot of the shopping center down the street from my house for 40 minutes so I didn’t have to go home yet.
  • I’ve told Cash it’s late or past his bedtime when it definitely wasn’t. Thank god for winter hours!
  • Whenever Tyson is not home we live on pasta and take out. I just can’t stand cooking for myself and a picky 3 1/2-year-old.

Saturday Struggle in Tahoe

I wish I could say this struggle was because I was hungover. 😂 Honestly this it’s not really that big of a struggle. We are here with great friends and we are super excited about the weekend. It’s just more of an inconvenience. A Saturday Inconvenience. 

We came to Tahoe for the weekend and we were/are beyond excited to play in the snow with Cash! There’s a good 4 feet of snow here already this season. Cash has never seen that much snow in his life!😃❄️☃️❄️

The drive took longer than usual and we got here around 1:30 AM but the kids were great!  

We got here a few hours before Will so we were left in charge of unlocking the house and turning off the electric wires used to keep the bears out. Will sent great instructions and we were good to go! 

But then the lights wouldn’t turn on. We thought maybe we could just flip the breaker. Nope, the power has been out for a bunch of Tahoe residents for a week now! They’ve been working through the nights to try and get it fixed and have warning stations set up for people who’ve lost power. 

Thankfully Will’s family has a gas heater and a gas stove. The house is warm and I can cook almost all the food we brought! Plus heat up Tate’s milk, which is a life saver for everyone’s sanity. 

We are planning on staying and will just leave earlier on Sunday than we had expected. Which works out for me because the Steelers game is on at 5:20. I mean, we have to stay because we have 3 thirty packs, tequila, and tic tacs to consume. Am I right?☺

I hope you are all having a fantastic weekend! What’s the weather like in your neck of the woods?  

 

Update on Meal Planning

Well, I still hate cooking. But I’m working on enjoying it.

I’ve been good about meal planning and trying to make sure I make dinner every night. Two nights last week didn’t work out the way I had hoped; one night we got home too late to cook and one night the recipe didn’t turn out right so we ended up having nachos.

Then one night this week I was just so upset I had no more energy to cook or worry about anyone other than myself after the kids went to bed. (You can read about that struggle here.)

Other than that I am doing pretty good. And to be honest, I’m quite proud of myself for not throwing in the towel yet. But let’s not get too excited, it’s only been 2 weeks. Still plenty of time for me to fail. 🙂

Saturday Struggle

My Saturday struggle is the fact that Tate is still sick and very cranky. I am tired of having sick kids; this has gone on for over a week now. He’s super whiny and nothing really makes him happy. And quite frankly I am just over it.


I just took this photo as I was writing about how cranky he is. 😣

I don’t think we are in for a happy go lucky Christmas Eve. We don’t even have a tree. 😔

I look silly in this picture, but Cash looks positively adorable in this picture I couldn’t help but share. ☺️